Views

my view on telling someone about an important exam or upcoming interview is that,

the more people you tell, when you fail, the more people you disappoint.

of course, it works vise versa too.

the more people you tell, when you succeed, the more people you make proud. (wrong sentence construct, i know.)

Which is also why whenever i have a big exam coming up, school exams are excluded because everyone knows about that.

I usually just keep it to myself or maybe just let a few people know, like my leaders and family.

I used to tell everyone i know when i have a big exam or something like that, then i stopped, cause everytime i fail, i feel like i've let them down.

Usually i just don't tell anyone. After you failed something and had to tell that person you've failed because they asked you how was the results, they feel sorry for you and really don't know what to say to you.

To save them the trouble, and myself the embarrassment, it's just better for me to keep it to myself.

Also, it kinda lessen the pressure, When everyone is rooting for you to succeed, the pressure is high and all you think about it to not let them down.

But that's just my view on it. :)

Hannah

Words

'And maybe one day, after i've passed on, someone would say, "she's a real star."'

-Hannah

Ask me anything. :) formspring me here! :D

Stop.

Stop lying to yourself

I'm serious. I find you really annoying, but I don't know what you're going through or I guess you're still hurting? but please, it's time to get over it.

It's time to let go, because holding on to that memories you have of us as really close friends won't help a single thing.

It's been years, I really don't know what to say to you.

You've changed, for whatever reason.

Think about it.

Hannah

Perfect.

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.

No one should be judge by someone who doesn't know what they're going through.

Behind all those smiles and laughs, is probably someone who is more broken than ever.

Who knows you better, than you yourself?

Sometimes things are so hard and I've been through it

Going through a period where I didn't really know who i am

I was caught up with trying to be like everyone else that when i actually looked into the mirror, i didn't even recognize who i was.

When we walk through the path of life, sometimes we take a wrong turn some where on the way.

We just need to have the strength to know that we'll turn back, and head up to the right road all over again.

I don't know what to feel, I really don't.

Hannah

If only

If only you all knew how awesome you are. :)

Pie.

I miss how easy things were.

:l

She said to him, ' tell me everything's gonna be alright.'

Tears rolling down his cheeks, he replied her, ' I can't.'

Time

Time is infinity.

Time after time, i don't know why I keep letting myself go.

I wonder why i keep risking myself to feel what I've felt a long time ago.

I was hurt, but i healed. But please, don't open the wounds that I've tried so hard to cover them up.

Being nice doesn't work, because nice people are the ones who suffer the most.

Quiet people are the ones who have the most to say.

Hang in there. :)

You'll be fine.

Hannah

Fakes.

HAHAHHA.

no you can't.

I see right through you, dude. stop thinking you're all that.

Because honestly, it's getting pretty annoying.

Numbness

Sometimes things don't come easy for some of us.

We don't make friends so easily;

We don't smile so often;

We don't see the joy of the world so much.

Sometimes we hold back the pain, until it become part of us.

When i was hurt, i took the pain, until it became part of me.

I was numb to it, and trust me, that was the worst feeling in the world.

I kept everything in, I didn't know what to do.

But by doing that, i trusted God through it. And He brought me through all of it, taking it one step at a time.

God, is love, but He is also Holy, and one day, soon. He'll be judging us, and we have to make an account of what we did with the time, the talent and the resources He provided for us.

The quake in Japan that happened just a couple days ago, it shook me.

What if, God comes back? What have i done in my lifetime that points to Him?

Have i made my life count to Him?

Did i really used everything He gave me, to bring Him the glory that He deserve more than anything?

And i haven't. I was too busy, working for worldly success. Always just telling God that maybe after I finish my studies, i'll do His work.

I thought about how and why was i working for the world, and not for Him.

I thought about unready am i, if God were to come tomorrow, or at the next hour.

I thought about what i would say to Him

I thought about what I'd say if He asked what did i do with all the talents, and time He gave.

I thought about how blessed i was

So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned,

In awe of the One who gave it all;

So I'll stand, my soul Lord, to You surrendered;

ALL, i am, is Your's

-The Stand ; Hillsong United.

Hannah

You know,

You're awesome.

Nothing will ever beat that. :)

Japan

Japan, if you haven't heard yet, was hit by a tsunami just a few hours ago.

Do pray for the people there.

Sometimes we think our lives are hard, that we are just merely surviving, but people out there in the world are struggling, without a choice.

We can still do something to change things around, but those who were hit by the terrible disaster, they can't do much.

Pray for courage, that they won't be discouraged, instead be encourage. Pray they they know God is with them, through all the disaster they are going through.

Lord, take care of Your people. :)

Hannah

Scars

I had this friend who was a cutter. I didn't know the seriousness of cutting then.

I was young and stupid. She would come to school and not let anyone see the cuts on the arm.

When I asked, she would just say that it was nothing. Until i kept asking when she finally told me she cut herself.

Everyone else who asked what had happened, she'd just say that she was scratch by some branches.

She's share with me the emotional pain she was going through and that sometimes it was better for her to feel the physical pain.

I'm lucky to still have her.

She was a cutter, and i let her be instead of stopping her.

I could not have been more ashamed about that.

You, let me know if i should be worried, okay?

These things are not funny, and you especially, should know that.

Hannah

HAHHA! :)

hello popcorn, yes it's you i'm talking about.

You're request to blog about you has been granted! :) so do be happy!

thank you, for listening to me ramble on and on about things i dont even understand.

sometimes, i get so tired that when i talk to you, i don't even know what i'm saying. :D

But you've been a nice friend, so you too, deserve a post! *pats on back!*

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oh and also, 100/100 for joe brooks. YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO. THANK YOU! :D

And remember, forgive them if they have spaghetti like brain, they can't help it. :D

Hannah

What You Can't Have.

I'm in no position to say anything.

I'm not in any position to tell you what to do,

Neither am i in any position to tell you that you're so much better than them.

I heard you swear the other day. I was shocked, i really was. You used to be the most patient person i know, you're still patient, but something changed. You changed, just so you could fit in more.

I understand how you feel, being teased and all. But really, you are so much, much better than who they are.

I'm worried for you, I don't show it. but i, too, as a close friend of your's feel like i could have done something more.

What if one day i lose you for good? I would never forgive myself for not spending more time with you.

I need you, to tell me, to warn me, if anything is going to happen.

What happened to those days where we could talk freely? i was gutless and a coward, too afraid to take the first step.

But i am, worried about you. Only you don't know how much it affects me.

And i'm in no position, to tell you anything that can make you feel better.

You, have the potential to be so much more. More than who you are. More than who i am.

Don't waste your life trying to be someone else, and especially don't waste it, trying to be me.

Because you are so much more than that. You need, to get your priorities right.

I'm can't tell you what i think about your new relationship, because you don't even wanna introduce me.

It was too fast. And you'll get hurt, all over again.

But I'm in no position to tell you how i feel.

We've strayed.

God, I'm praying for wisdom. Just like how i've prayed to not be in my comfort zone. But now, i need YOUR wisdom to know what's the wise thing to do.

Whatever you're going through, you're not alone.

Hannah

March.

hey guys! (: march came by really quickly! And honestly, i need to take a little breather! :)

Sometimes it is, good to look back and see how far you've come yes?

And the feeling of focusing on really how much you've grown and not much much you failed is, amazing! :)

I've had plenty of failures in the past. I have always hope for more than i can achieve, always telling myself that i can do it. but when the results show, disappointment swept through me.

But why let you're standards down? Maybe one day, you'll achieve the results that is more, than what you can achieve, imaging that happiness and that joy you'll feel. :)

Talent for something is just a spark that makes you enjoy it, but it is the hard work of perfecting it that makes someone skillful.

;)

You are so much better without them, then again, who am i to tell you that? :I

Hannah