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no, im not done with my sweet seventeen post! :)

being seventeen, i've realized so many things.

actually, i've realized a lot this month, first month of the year, it was a good start! :)

there were a lot of downs, but, there were definitely some really uplifting moments!

i was 'promoted' a class up this year. I had really good friends there, and it was the class that i've always wanted to be in since i came into school.

but, i so badly wanted to get out of there. It was a really big change of atmosphere.

through the 4 years of my high school, i was always in the class which was cheeky, smart, but lazy. but this year, the class was totally different, people were soo studious and it was really different!

Just a couple years ago, i told myself that im tired of always trying to make people happy, and i'm going to start putting myself first, and not caring about anyone else. Just recently, i realized that i've actually been too self-centered that i didn't even realize that when i'm sad, it affects my friends too. I never realize that they wanted me to be happy. I was too selfish to notice that.

So now, i'm trying to not be so self-centered, but make myself happy while making other people happy. And of course, making God proud, and being who He has made me to be.

I'm only seventeen, I probably still have a long way more, or maybe now, no one knows. But i'm hoping, that i'll be using my talents wisely, to help, to be a blessing, to people and to shine my light.

Who knows how long the road i'm travelling is going to be? But i'm praying that i am taking the right path, the one where only few has walked, and to be different, and not walk where the world is walking through.

I'm already seventeen. And i'm blessed and overwhelmed. And I, have still, a long way to go, in maturing in Christ.

Hannah

SevenTeen! :D

so yes, i'm officially seventeen, officially legal to drive. spent the last 2 days with the bunch of friends.

it was really such an awesome time spent with those 2 bunch of people. plus spent today with the family. ♥

really, i am truly blessed to have each and everyone of them by my side. plus my brother who's overseas too! his phone call made my whole day! Best thing for my birthday! :)

so speechless, i dont know where to start replying people. so.. yes. :)

Hannah

Seven, plus ten.

I'd be turning seventeen tomorrow. and.. half excited, half not. we'll see how it goes! ;)

Expectations

I'm so tired of everyone thinking they know who i am.

I'm tired of them thinking they know me very well.

Probably only a few that really knows me.

And sometimes, even the one closest to me, doesnt even know me very well.

I'm tired of them labeling me, putting expectations on my because of something i did well once.

i'm grateful for expectations, but too much, stresses one out.

The other day, a couple of week back, something broke inside of me, and i teared up like crazy. :)

I realised that all i did, since last year was complain that there was going to be too many responsibilities for me this year.

I teared up, realizing that i never thanked The Lord for all the opportunities He gave me this year.

I'm going to use all the opportunities He has given to me, to maybe, make a difference in where i am. I dont like my new class and i miss the old class like crazy, but i'm going to make everything counts.

Every second counts, you, could make a huge difference

Hannah

If..

If you could be anything in the world, what would you be?

Me, i'd be a star, because they reflect light from the sun, and shine the light through them, brightening up people's day.

I want to be reflecting God's light through me too, that people may see it, and know that there is a difference in who i am.

Fear.

I'm afraid that one day, everyone i know wouldn't want to know me anymore.

Alone

Sometimes you feel that you're going through your life all alone,

you're not.

Hannah

Trying

I'm tired of trying.

I really am.

Tired of trying to explain how i feel

Tired of trying to make people happy

Tired of trying to do everything, all at the same time.

Sometimes, i feel like if i should stop blogging, i dont know who reads this, i dont know who wants to read it. And i dont know who actually were touched by what i wrote.

What keeps me going is that i know, there is someone out there, who understands, what i'm trying to say with words. what i'm trying to express.

Things are hard, and i'm still Trusting God to guide me through it.

Hannah

Mean

Does saying mean things about others make you happy?

Does bullying and teasing people make you fell better?

Sometimes i wonder, why is it that people like to tease me so much. A little teasing is fine, but sometimes, it goes overboard.

And i would wonder, is it because i ALLOWED them to keep teasing me?

is it because i'm fun to teased?

or is it just because i'm an easy target?

I'm not a person who easily takes harsh words to heart, because some are just fooling around and i understand that, but if someone doesn't stop teasing or bullying, you'll start wondering if there is something wrong with yourself.

Some people never learn to see whats inside, dont be like them. Make a difference.

Hannah

Growing Up.

Growing up is never easy, but living life like peter pan, won't get you anywhere.

Because part of the growing process, is going through the times that makes you sad, depressed, happy and thankful.

Times

Sometimes, the person that smiles the most, is the one that cry themselves to sleep everynight.

Sometimes, the person that feels lonely the most is the one that has the most friends.

Sometimes, the person that talks the most, is the one that has the deepest thoughts.

People aren't who they seem they are, never judge them by how they look, how they hang out with, or how they act. Because they may be going through more than you can ever imagine.

Hannah

Kevin

Wu Kai Wen! ♥

Plans

Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Ever felt like you've lived all your life already?

God has the most amazing plan, for you. Things that you went through, alone, they made you stronger.

Whatever had happened, it all happens for a reason, maybe you don't know it yet, but maybe you will someday soon.

Hold on.

Worth

You're worth more than what you think.

YOU, are worth it!

You. :)

You, who think that you're not pretty.

Forget that thought.

You are pretty, you are gorgeous. you don't have to be stick thin to be 'pretty', but you, who is a plus size is beautiful because of who you are. You are capable of many things, more than you know it.

You, who had thought of running away, hoping that it might solve whatever you're in for just a second so you can think it through.

Don't run.

It never solve anything, and it never will. Stay put at where you are, find some really good friends to talk to, sometimes, even friends wouldn't help, then just talk to a random stranger, at times, you pour out worries better to those whom never know your past.

You, who had thoughts of ending ones' life, thinking that everyone around you would be happier without you on the face of the earth.

Don't end it.

It never solve anything, and it never will. Get help, from as close as your neighbors to as far as across the world. Things will get better. Even if you think no one will ever miss you. You thought wrong, far worst than wrong.

You, reading this, makes me smile. :)

And you, are stronger than you think. Because when that fighter in you, comes out, that strength within, the one that keeps you from thinking you're not pretty, the one that keeps you from running away, the one that keeps you still here, that strength is going to be something you'll remember you have for the rest of your life. :)

♥

Hannah

Firsts

How was first day of school for most of you? :)

This shall be my last, first day of school.

last, first day wearing a uniform. hah. :)

Senior year babyy! :D my teachers are.. well, there's not all that bad, but i really was hoping for some other teachers. But, we don't always get what we want, now do we? ;)

Bought my exercise books, couldnt find some of my literature books so, i guess i'll be borrowing someone's tomorrow.

So, i will certainly TRY my best to blog as often as i can. :)

Hannah

School

OH WOW! before i continue, we hit 40 page views yesterday! WOAW! hahah. prolly the same person just clicking 'older post' thus refreshing the page. but yes. i sure am impressed! :D

Anyway, starting first day of senior year tomorrow. not as excited as i should be though. I really don't know what to expect of this new year. Trials for exams would probably start around august and the real exam would start around november.

Had youth usher's outing today. t'was fun. :) and..

MY GOODNESS, I NEED A LOT OF HELP THIS YEAR!

Hannah

1-1-11

happy first of january all! :)

so, i really don't know how much i can blog this year cause, well, last year of high school and exams and all. I will try though, but no promises! (:

Hopefully, this year will be different.

Hannah