Humility.

3a.m inspirations. 

Thank You, God.

Been thinking a lot on humility and humbleness. It's an amazing thing that only some people have, and I really look up to those who live their lives with such humility and grounded in the Word of God. 

Humble people are great people to talk with, to open up to and to share your hearts out with them. Why? They don't judge, they don't be-little you because of some problems you're facing, they don't think any less of you. Instead, they try to help. It's funny how open someone can get with a person that is humble in their hearts, though they both are not even close friends, but merely friends.

And I've been thinking, what makes them different? What makes these people so easy to connect with, to talk to, to just lean on them a while? And it dawned on me. They don't think less of you because they too, realize that they are sinners. And your sins isn't bigger than theirs. Hence, they judge less. 

Too many times, we,(myself included) judge people because we think that their sins are waaaaay more "unforgivable" than ours or that they have done way worst than us, we forget that we are all sinners, in need of a Saviour who has came to save us on Calvary. We judge others because we see the speck of dust in their eyes but neglect the log in our eyes! (Matthew 7:1-5) Oh what hypocrites we are! God, please forgive our hardened and judgemental hearts! 

We all sin, we are all sinners. Though each and everyone of us sin differently, it doesn't make us any more "holy". But only by the blood of Christ that had cleanse us. 

Do we be-little others to make them feel bad or guilty so that we can feel better? And what for? For some temporary "bliss" that we get? Is that worth it? Not one bit! In fact, in my opinion, it only encourages boasting and pride-fullness. And neither of that is any qualities of Christ.

The lack of humility had cause plenty of trouble with each other, especially among believers. It causes friendships between believers to be "white-washed" and surfaced. Not able to go deep enough to help each other out. But relationships between believers should! They should be able to edify one another and grow together, to build each other up in faith, not tear them down! 

How is your sins, bigger than mine? It isn't! Sins are still sins, it is still our sins that sent Christ to the Cross, It is our sins that nailed Him there. It is my sins, that had caused all the pain and suffering and the torture that a sinless man, the Son of God, had to endured. It was my sin, that "helped" Him to the Cross. And it was nothing on my part to deserve such grace to be alive and blessed today. It was nothing on my part to have done, all that I've done throughout my life. It is the undeserving grace shown by the Father, the willingness of the Son, and the conviction of the Holy Spirit that I am who I am today. And it's a constant struggle to grasp the depth of that, in a world where I am so blessed. 

It was grace that I did not deserve, Imagine a father who forgives a murderer who had killed his only son, his only child. Imagine the love shown there. And it's so much more, because it isn't just any father, but it is God and His Son. It takes so much humility to do what Christ had done here on Earth, to be beaten and torn apart not because of Himself, but because of us, because of me! 

There's so much to learn, so much pride to let go of, so much ego to release, so many things to be so grateful for, so much further to go, to truly understand and learn the humility Christ had. And if the Lord Wills, I do pray, that I might someday, be that person whom people can count on, without feeling like they're being judged. But most importantly, if He wills, I pray, to be able to plant seeds among the people I've met, and will meet. 

Hannah

Stories.

She has plenty of great stories to tell

of God's amazing grace upon her life.

If only someone 

would ask her about them.

Hannah

Grace

Results are coming out tomorrow, and after a great week of learning last week, there's just so much peace in myself regarding this big day tomorrow.

Learning on how even Christ submitted to God's Will on the Cross and being reminded on how God has given to me the greatest of all gifts, which is the Holy Spirit. Really, how much more do I really need? 

I remember writing about God's Will and how too often we take for granted the prayer of Jesus, saying "Not my will, but Your's be done." And this couple of weeks reminded me of it. Blogpost here.

So earlier this week, I managed to spend some time alone, thinking and reflecting about the big results day tomorrow and coming to a conclusion that truly, there can only be good news or greater news, as the best news has been delivered when God's wrath was satisfied on the Cross through one atoning death. 

Though there was no back up plans towards my education, for the past week, I felt safe, secure and grounded because of Christ and God's amazing grace and love in my life. For the first time since my exams passed, I truly am convicted that "if it doesn't work out, God has better plans for me."

God doesn't give us what we want, but what we need.

And that's so true, do we want Christ? Absolutely not! We are happy drowning in our own sins and lust and worldliness, not knowing that these sins are leading us to our own grave, not knowing that as we fall deeper and deeper, we are actually digging our own grave to die in, not earthly grave, eternal grave. And that is so scary.

But what we do need is Christ, and God gave us Christ, He gave us something we don't want, but we absolutely need for the sake of our lives! Quite literally! And Christ had so obediently obeyed and submitted to the Will of Cross, up to the point of death. How amazing is the love shown upon the Cross for us, mere sinner who not just rejected Christ, but despise Him to the very core!

Oh, how much love that has been shown for us! We don't realise it, but we're literally drowning in the love of God, and yet we find it so hard to love Him! We usually love people because of how nice they treat us, or how loving they are to us. But God, who had shown unconditional love and the greatest love of all to us, yet somehow, we don't love Him as much. Why?

Why do we still crave for the world as if we should belong when we have found the greatest treasure who is Christ? Why do we complain that we don't have good role models when the perfect role model can be found in the Bible? Why do we worry and think that God doesn't know what we want when He has already given us the best? Why do we fear the temporary, but not the eternal? Why do I do that?

Committing all unto the Lord, because really, what do I know, that He doesn't?(Nothing.)

Hannah

Fly.

"Where would you be in a couple of months time?"

Honestly, I don't know. 

And it'll be a week left till I find out.

Hannah

Think. Start. Build.

                            

            NextGen Space

Think Big;

Start Small;

Build deep.

How true, isn't it? Many times we are told to think big, to dream big, aim high and shoot for the moon, but no one ever tells us how to get there. How to accomplish the dream was never told. So what most of us would do is that we start big, with a huge plan in mind, we "forget" that every huge success started with a small first step. So often we want things done fast, we want them done right at the first time too. Even with a tiny bit of obstacles we give up, saying that it's not worth an investment. 

If people were to give up on me whenever I did something wrong or something that had disappointed them, I probably wouldn't be the person I am today, I probably won't even be a Christian! Personally, in a generation that is so pampered, everything is given to us, everything is spoon fed and we don't work as hard as our parents did to get what we want, hence when things don't go the way we wanted it to go, we throw out hands up in surrender without trying again. 

The walk with Christ seem to be the total opposite, because it is having to constantly face challenges and obstacle and pray and believe that God will bring you through it and that your faith will be stronger. 

I don't know what Edmund Chan's context was when he quoted this. But for me, the aim is Christlikeness; starting with repentance of sins and knowing and accepting that we are worthless without Christ and God's grace, and then building the roots deeper in Christ so that when tempted, we can be like trees that are firmly rooted and not give way to temptations. 

Hannah