Sufferings.

True happiness comes through suffering, because without it, how are we ever going to understand what happiness is?
That is why it is through Christ's suffering on the cross that causes us to understand happiness IN Christ.
Because we died with Christ was made alive with Him, thus, we should know what rejoicing in Christ means.

But the truth is, we don't. We don't rejoice in the resurrection of Christ. We don't. Because we DON'T understand the depth of suffering that Christ had to go through for us.
We know that He took our sins, we know that God's face turned away from Him as Christ died. But we don't know how much it hurts. We don't know the real depth of His love.
We don't understand it because we're blinded by our own sinful desires.
We're blinded by the things of the world that captures our eyes.
The shiny an glittery worldy treasures that doesn't even last!

Christ died and in that, we should rejoice.
I should rejoice.
But I'm not, because I'm still sinful, I'm still captivated by the world.
But I'm trying to be. And by His help, His grace and His mercy, maybe one day. I'll truly be happy because of what He had done for me.

Hannah

Misunderstands.

Everyone's struggling, whether they mention it out loud or not.
Respect them because you don't know what they're going through.

Hannah

Never Good Enough.

" I'm not good in anything, I'm not incredible at sports, or an athlete. I'm not excellent in my academics, I'm not talented in music nor do I play any musical instruments like a pro. I'm not sociable and i get mad easily. I'm too emotionally connected and certain things that people say keeps me thinking about it for weeks, not just days, but weeks. I feel like I'm never gonna be good enough. I'm never gonna be someone people want as a part of their life. I never got any achievements that I could really be proud about and I just wished that there was something, something that I can actually do, something that I'm really good at, something that people will turn to me and finally tell me, 'good job.' And I'm wishing on something that is probably never going to happen. But I'm just wishing, you know?"

:'(

Why do we keep trying to build up treasures on Earth? Why do we store up on things that will not last forever? Why do we search for things to fill our void when only one person can really satisfy? Why am I doing that?
Wouldn't it be a greater and much more wonderful thing to hear our Lord God, the one who created us tell us, "well done, good and faithful servant."? We are constantly looking for ways to please ourselves, but what are we doing to please God? How is our actions pleasing to Him? How does our actions point to Christ? We're just pointing to ourselves, wanting the glory all back to us and not to God when He really deserve ALL glory. Why should He not? He created you, He gave you talents, He cleansed you from your sins. But all that Christ had sacrificed, doesn't seem to be enough for us.

I'm upset with the fact that I lost my temper, I'm upset that I can't help everyone who is hurting. I'm upset that I can't even keep my friends. Then again, why is everything about me? Christ has a plan and whatever it is, I should rejoice instead. I just.. I can't believe I lost my temper.

Hannah

At This Moment.

How do you do it? Do you choose one person over the other? Or do you just go with the flow? How exactly do you manage your time properly between two groups of friends?

How do you hang out with everyone and still are good friends with the ones you hang with? How do you befriend new people without being critised by your old friends? How do you stand up and tell them about what you're feeling when you're just so sick and tired of it all?

What do you do?

Hannah

Eighteen.

My eighteen birthday wasn't as grand as others would be. But it didn't matter.
I spent my day doing homework as the weekend before i was away.
What is the significance of being eighteen? Even I'm not to sure. But going through a month of college, I'm exhausted.
Piled up with home works and things to do, I'm not even sure what to do anymore.

I'm struggling through this time, and there is only ONE solution, Christ.
However things are, Christ is sufficient. or HE is suppose to be sufficient, but because of our sinful desires, our constant pleasures to be of the world that causes us to keep filling our void with things that are not from God, instead we fill it with things of the world when really, we all have that one precious thing. we have Christ as our saviour. And I need to remember that, because when everything fails, God doesn't. And I need to trust him.

Have you ever prick your finger on a needle? scrape your knee when you fell, it hurts doesn't it?
Now imagine a nail, penetrating through your wrist as you hang on it. 2 wrist, 2 nails, and another 2 more going through your feet. As you hang, people watch you die.
Many times, people don't think about the cross, I too, am so guilty of it. We don't want to think about the Cross because it reflect on our wrongs. But we don't realise that the Cross also reflect on how worthless and how we are nothing and Christ is everything.

When are we going to realize that Christ is enough, that He is sufficient?
When am I going to realise that?

Hannah