2009

one word for 2009: LONG!

thinking back about what happened in the beginning of the year made me go: "omg, did that really just happened less than 12 months ago? it felt like eternity."

nevertheless, this year has definitely been a year full of tears. probably half the year has been flooded with tears. it has been a struggle passing through the year. but i've made it! we're made it! memories from 2009 i would love to erase but cant. tears from hurts, fears, uncertenty that i wouldnt mind if it would just go away.

2009 has been the worst year of my whole fifteen years so far. one year that if i could repeat it, i wouldnt. Then again without the year 2009, i wouldnt be able to mature in Christ, in myself more. i wouldnt be able to find myself and discover who i really am, who my real friends are, and realized that there are people out there for me. willing to listen to my grumbles and complains, plus wiping my tears away.

2009 has been a year where a lot of 'somebodies' left my side to pursue their dreams, their studies. i've had a lot of unanswered question lingering around my head, unable to find an answer to it. but now i know, if i couldnt find the answer, maybe i wasnt meant to have it.

2009 has been a tough year, but whatever that doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger. a BIG thank you to those who went through it with me. it has really been a roller coaster ride. one that was so horrible that i wanted to get off it, but cant.

in the soon to come 2010, im not going to be looking for love, but let it find me. im determined to concentrate and fulfill those 10A1's in the year 2011. no one said life was easy.

but i know, that whatever that doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger.

and failure only makes me more determined to succeed.

time to close my fifteen-th chapter of life and get started with the sixteen-th(:

so now, im proud to bid the year 2009 goodbye and dont ever come back.

and welcome the year 2010. be nice to me alright. im still a kid!

happy new years everyone(:

Hannah