Summing Up.

January's a month of fitting in.

Not fitting in like being the new kid in school, but form 4 was more hectic than i've ever known. having to learn the 3 new science subjects was tough at first, i couldnt understand what a 'mole' is in chemistry, i couldn't understand all the laws in physics, i ha

d no clue in biology. But as time passes, i slowly gotten the hang of it and looking back, i was, pretty dumb to not know those simple terms! ;)

February's a month of homeworks.

Trying to understand all the new subjects was the better part, but the learning process wouldn't increase without doing practices. Still at the beginning of the year, everyone was hardworking and finishing up their homeworks, so probably teachers used this opportunity to give us tons of homework, before laziness kicks in.

March's a month of exams and cheer.

Had my last piano theory exam on March. Besides that, having out first term exam starting right after sports day was a really bad timing. Sports day, that was on a friday, woke up early and arrived at school at around 6.30 in the morning. Results were disappointing for us but nevertheless a good effort. Second was not that bad! ;) And after that, exam starts on monday. Despite the business of having to go for cheer pr

actice, and piano lessons, (i still had my practical exam to go) i did manage to make time for studies with resulted in a quite shocking placement. :)

April's a month of non-resting.

Did my first performance in church as an official RIC(Real Ink Crew) member in church during the Holy Saturday in Youth. Miming was new to me and the make-up, took a really long time. Overall it was fun.

May's a month of leadership.

School had just started a little prayer group for all Christians and i had the opportunity to be leading them in worship most of the time. This really helped me exercise some leadership skills and when i first started, it was all a mess but it slowly pr

ogressed to being really, quite good! :)

June's a month of toughness.

Musical practices started already and there was dance practices to go and make-up practice(?) to attend. Honestly, i would do it all over again, i've met many new people and loved the thrill of performing. June was also the month where i had to do hardcore studying and practicing the piano to make up for the time i spend practicing dance. I had one kind of perspective then, 'If only i could spend the same amount of time playing the piano as i did dancing, my playing would probably be better than what i was then.' (:

July was a month of musical! :)

180 The Musical was a blast to do. Having bond with the cast and crew was an amazing experience. So many hours were spent on practices. So many missed dinners on saturday night, but it really was all worth it. After the musical, days felt so empty. It was too good, to describe the feeling. :) and my failed haircut. HAHAH. :)

August's a month of CHRISTMAS!

As weird as it sounds, but yes, i did go to a christmas concert in August. Aubrey Suwito and team were performing in church. It was packed like mad, and it was good. there was so much christmas spirit then! at august! :D

September's a month of goodbyes.

September was a month where people leave for overseas to pursue their studies. One of them was my brother. It was hard to see my brother leave. I wasn't that close to him but still close enough to miss him. This is the guy that i spent 16 years of my birthday with. so yes, i do miss him. ;)

October's a month of hardwork.

October was a sign of the year ending for school. final year exams were a huge headache. Teacher didn't have time to finish the syllabus so it was up to ourselves to study it. And that was tough too considering the fact that we wasn't given enough time. But it went alright, i guess. (:

November's a month of results.

Results were out on November. school's and my piano exams. They weren't very satisfying and my piano exam did make it cry. But i learn to get over it, and next year, i will try my very best, and do it all over again.

December's a month of reflecting, caring and giving. :)

December was the month of camp and Christmas. All about God. It really helped me understand Him more and draw closer to Him. A lot of reflection has been made on this year, and i've realized some things and why it happened in the past.

Every good thing must come to an end, so better things can happen. 2010 has been a fantastic year. 2011 will be a year full of obstacles and i just have to trust God to guide me through this road. As He open up His plans for MY future. :)

BLESSED NEW YEARS! ♥

Hannah

British!

heeehh. :) JOE BROOKS! :D

Agnes

yes, i'm back from my little vacation. lost my necklace there so i'm pretty upset about it.

anyway, 2010 has been really good.

not sure about you, but 2011 scares me a lil. There'll be so many responsibilities for me and major exams. I had to give up things i love, to do things for God.

Thinking about 2011 gives me that fuzzy feeling inside. Maybe it's because i'm not ready to let go of this year yet.

Maybe it's because i'm afraid. one year older, means i have lesser time to decide about my future. And i'm fearful about that.

In exactly one month, i'd be 17. That scares me.

Hannah

Hello! :)

Hey guys. Just a quick hello. Am blogging from my hotel's lobby. Been a nice vacation. I'll be back soon, really! :)

Quick Note.

Oh, and a quick update. i will be away for a few days. so i wont be blogging. I'll be back soon though. :)

Merry Christmas! (:

Christmas.

How was christmas everyone? :)

Patients.

I need to learn patient. I need to learn humility.

Being a person who has 'ranks', I really need to humble myself.

Luke 14:11 " For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted. "

To do this, i have to examine myself. To check myself on what my real motives are. Is it to praise God? or to just make my name in a place that i'm not going to be in forever?

I don't wanna live life as it is now. It's pointless. But to live for something, bigger than who we are. To know that maybe one day i might just talk to Him, and i don't want that day, for Him to turn me away, saying He doesn't know me.

This Christmas, tis the season to share God's love.

I don't have the courage to share His wonderful love with everyone face to face yet. But we all need to start somewhere. And i'm starting right here. The place where i share my thoughts.

Too many things happened at the Cross,

And i can't thank You enough for it.

Hannah

Falling.

Some people, they fall in a relationship, and they start building walls around it.

Some, fall and continue making mistakes like before.

For me, if you fall, and still continue doing the same mistakes as before, then maybe your fall wasn't much of a fall at all. Maybe you've expected that fall so it didnt hurt that much.

Some people might have a fall in their relationship, go to a friend to cry to, or to just talk to them about the downfall of it. But if he/she stands back up and get into another relationship after a while, then they probably didn't have a fall hard enough for them to realize that all they need really, was just time alone.

Now, i'm not saying that standing back up in a relationship is a bad thing, it's probably a good one, signs showing you've moved on. But forcing oneself to get back up without letting the wound to heal will only lead you into another downfall.

Note: this is just my opinion, your's isnt wrong! :)

Tell me the TRUTH,

cause that's the only thing i want to hear.

Hannah

Tumblr

found this off tumblr, first thought: whaat. lame. -___- HAHAH.

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Quick question,

can someone lead a person to believe in love yet doesn't believe in it themselves?

Prove Me Wrong.

I'm tired of always trying to prove people wrong.

I, want ice cream. :)

Stop The Spam.

hello everyone, one thing,

please please please stop the spam in my chat box.

but i doubt that the people who spamed it would be reading it anyway, so i decided to take the chatbox off.

if you wanna comment or anything, just press the little comment button at the end of the post alright?

thank you! :)

Hannah

Wishful Thinking.

i've had some big decision to make yesterday. and i went to God for help.

I had doubts and He answered them.

One important question i asked was 'what if i'm over committed?'

God's replied came back as a string of questions that really made me think.

He said,

'would you give up some stuff for me?

Would you let go of things you love to do MY works?

Would you stop trying to store up treasures on Earth?

Would you stop living for the world and start living for me?'

Would you, start living for God too?

Hannah

Maths

i dont know what to say.

no one's ever said what you've said to me before.

things are pilling up, i need time to sort things through, one at a time.

Secrets

I've learned to trust God on the topic of love.

i dont wanna just let anyone in, and i dont wanna just accept anyone.

because maybe if i do, when i'm caught up with him, a really special someone will come, and i might just miss it. :)

Pictures! :)

group picture guys! :) hmmm.

and if you're wondering, yes, i'm away, again.

will be blogging NORMALLY again soon! :)

Toast

But with God's help, even the hardest obstacles i will be able to concur! ;)

Elevate10

So what made me be MIA for a few days? elevate 10.

Elevate's the name of this year's youth camp.

Elevate means to take it higher.

This camp has been really different than the rest.

but different is good, different is cool! :) it really opened my eyes to see lots of things.

For me to examine myself to be a better person, for God.

I wont share the whole experience, for, it's quite indescribable. But the one thing that really struck me was that, we all have two choices:

We either choose God or we choose the world and everything in it.

Time to put things into practice.

Hannah

Away! D:

if you sell that kinda colours in a tube, PLEASE tell me, i'll buy it even if i dont know what i'll do with it. hah. it's just too pretty! :D

so yes, i'm going to be mia for awhile. will probably be back blogging on wednesday. thursday latest! ;)

i'll blog soon!

loves!

Hannah

Oh Joe. ;)

Prepare for a spam. ♥

you can be my superman anytime. ♥

he, is probably gonna be the best superman with a British accent for me. :)

oh, melts. ♥♥♥♥♥♥

Next Post..

is all about THIS guy here. :)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Nick

he's such a great guy, and i would really wanna meet him one day. :)

Tough Nut

people always think that, just because you're hanging out with your friends or at least smiling that you are, quite satisfied with your life.

and part of it is true. the other part however is more complicated than the rest.

i've been looking back at my this year's new year resolution. in the 'emotional being' area i wrote that i want to stop looking down or comparing myself to others.

and i didnt even notice it until i read it back, but i really did improve myself in that area.

i'd use to always compare myself, it wasnt a compare myself to feel better but, it was more of a comparison that made me feel bad and make me wish i w

as like them.

And this year, without even noticing it, i slowly shed that part of me and started to realize that my biggest competitor is.. myself.

There's always something that we'd wish we could have done better. Many thinks that if they could go back in time to change something, they would undo one of their mistakes.

but think about it, if you undo that mistake from your life, you'd probably wont be where you are right now.

some people dont like the position that their in, i have no idea who you readers are, but theres probably someone who is proud of you for just being, you! even if they dont show it much.

Everyday, whenever i click that little 'new post' button, i face the fear of writing something insensitive to someone, because thats the last thing on earth that i wanna do. i fearthat i might just type out something that might hurt someone, that might insult them.

The whole reason for this blog is for me to rant, mainly, but also to give hope.

because it was here where i regained my hope.

maybe one day, i'll tell my story, but for now, my main purpose is to share the hope.

If at the end of the day

there's someone out there who has a better day

because of us, then we've succeeded.

-Wong Fu Productions Motto

Hannah

Fireworks

if there even is such a word, but everyone fear of being forgotten.

the feeling of someone forgetting you is harsh and painful, and if the person is someone close, it hurts even more.

i cant seem to write anymore. hopefully i'll get ideas to write again.

The way your eyes shines,

Theres no way anyone wont stop and admire.

Hannah

Different.

Growing up, i've tried all i could to fit in. until it came to the point that i probably could never.

i've got close friends sure,we talked and all, about all sorts of things, but it somehow feels like im worlds apart from them all.

i'm not that pretty girl, im not that smart girl, im not the really social girl, neither will i be that emo girl.

i've tried to be all of them, i did, and over the years, i just got to know that im not any of the above and i've been able to accept that i'll never be like any of them.

Last year was definitely a really tough year for me, and i couldnt go to anyone. it isnt the fact that no one bothered about me, in fact it was the total opposite, i was too afraid of bothering people by telling them about it. but the brighter side of it was that it really brought me closer to God. since i was too afraid to talk to people, i turned to God instead, and that really helped me.

my point is that, no matter what 'category' of people you are, or even is you've just mixed up and dont know what to do, you are, who you are and just be thankful for that.

after all the fitting in and trying, i've never felt more comfortable in where i am now. i might not always feel happy about myself, but i'd rather be myself than anyone else.

If fitting in means to fake my whole life,

then i guess i'll be better off alone.

Hannah

Fake Smiles

thoughts has been running through my head these few days.

and really, how do you really know who a person is?

Multicolour

they have multicoloured legos now?

waow!

Spring Cleaning?

i know its not spring in.. any part of the world now.

but i did a 'short'(it wasnt that short actually)cleaning of my room. i couldnt move any furnitures around cause they're all built in. so yeaah. i ended up using 2 hours to clean my study desk. then i fell into bed. :)

it's hard to me to do cleaning, cause well, i'm allergic to dust and all, so everytime i finish cleaning i'd be sniffing away and using loads of tissues.

i do keep a lot of stuff, like papers and all, cause well, they're mostly memories and i really dont like to throw them away. whenever i thought of a quote i'd just write it down in any piece of paper, so you can actually guess i do have a lot of paper lying around. :)

i did clean the stationary section on my desk too, and gosh, i realize i have so many brand new pencils! unsharpened. i could start a collection from it.

And speaking of pencils, i kinda hate them, cause they can be used for so long. i wanted to throw away most of the pencils i have, (i do have a lot) but then i felt real bad for the trees and decided to keep them.

and yes, i was suppose to be studying when i cleaned me room. such a nice excuse aint it? ;)

cause i was wrong

-just a dream

Hannah