Adventure.

While my heart longed for an adventure

 for the longest time, 

Now that I've gotten it, 

all I wanted to do was go home. 

It's funny how God works. Travelling alone and being away from home has always been want I had wanted for the longest time. Not to escape, but just to see how the world is, beyond my little bubble of ignorance. To live life independently, to learn how to survive in a foreign country, to learn how to cook, to learn how to take care of myself in general. 

It's been four days in this new place, four days spent mostly alone, four days walking around town, doing shopping, going for events, all alone. It's pretty sad and quiet and lonely here, and I am missing home too much, the people, the familiarity of the places, warm and hot food cooked by my mom, and my whole family. 

I am terribly grateful to my parents for this opportunity, but now that I'm here, I sometimes wonder if I should've done twinning instead. Have I rushed into this decision of pursuing my entire tertiary education overseas? Was I too impulsive in all this? I mean, I'm only 19. I haven't even reached a legal age of 21 yet. And yet, God has guided me ten thousand kilometres away from home, to this place where I am forced to call home. 

I thank God for His grace and mercy upon my life, through my whole journey here. I know that He has and He will be there for me, through everything, because He is a sovereign God. No matter what, I know that He has a greater plan, just waiting for me to unravel. 

While I was just happy and contented with how things are back home, God decided to take me out of my comfort zone, out of where I am familiar with, out of where I belong, and put me in this place where everything is brand new, and different. The culture, the people, the things they do here. I was absolutely okay, and ready to take a gap year and stay at home, maybe do a twinning, but I am so blessed to have been given this opportunity to study overseas. And I couldn't be more excited about this. 

Whilst feeling incredibly homesick, I am very grateful. Here I am, 19, going on 20 and having an adventure of a lifetime. Grateful to God for His amazing grace upon my life, for providing me parents who loves and have given their all to me, to be able to give me an experience that they themselves couldn't have. To allow me to live out this dream for an adventure. 

Truly, nothing is better than God's grace, upon my life, when Christ died for my sins, on Calvary. 

Hannah

Blessed.

"& God will bless you 

with all your hearts desires."

How many of you have heard that? For me, I've heard it too many times. But what do your heart desire? What should your heart desire as a Christian?

God does bless us with all that our hearts desires, because all we should desire is God Himself! And He has already given that to us, on the Cross, when the Son of Man came down to Earth as a man, to die for us, not for Himself because He is wholly pure and wholly sinless and wholly blameless.

Trusting in Christ doesn't mean that if you desire wealth, you will get it. NO! Trusting in Christ means that you desire Christ Himself, because really, what other things in this lifetime is more worth while than Christ Himself? 

When we truly desire Christ with all our hearts, everything else is all a blessing. Isn't it a blessing to just be able to wake up without a leaking roof that you can't afford to fix? Or even waking up each morning itself is such a wonderful blessing of life itself. Knowing that in all things, God is sovereign above all. 

The apostle Paul suffered through his lifetime, he suffered more than most of us did and yet, he had so much joy! Joy in Christ, joy in The Lord, knowing that he is suffering for a greater cause of Jesus Christ Himself. And Paul sees beyond his pain and misery, he looks towards Christ. 

Do you really desire Christ? He is all that you need. Do I really desire Him? I am so amazed by God's amazing grace upon my life, and His love towards me that is so unconditional.

Help me, desire you more, through prayer and the reading of Your precious Word.

Hannah

Thoughts.

Stripped of your beautiful gown;

your prefect looking hair;

your glittering accessories;

your pretty touched up face;

and your branded studded heels;

what do you have left?

Hannah