Adventure.

While my heart longed for an adventure

 for the longest time, 

Now that I've gotten it, 

all I wanted to do was go home. 

It's funny how God works. Travelling alone and being away from home has always been want I had wanted for the longest time. Not to escape, but just to see how the world is, beyond my little bubble of ignorance. To live life independently, to learn how to survive in a foreign country, to learn how to cook, to learn how to take care of myself in general. 

It's been four days in this new place, four days spent mostly alone, four days walking around town, doing shopping, going for events, all alone. It's pretty sad and quiet and lonely here, and I am missing home too much, the people, the familiarity of the places, warm and hot food cooked by my mom, and my whole family. 

I am terribly grateful to my parents for this opportunity, but now that I'm here, I sometimes wonder if I should've done twinning instead. Have I rushed into this decision of pursuing my entire tertiary education overseas? Was I too impulsive in all this? I mean, I'm only 19. I haven't even reached a legal age of 21 yet. And yet, God has guided me ten thousand kilometres away from home, to this place where I am forced to call home. 

I thank God for His grace and mercy upon my life, through my whole journey here. I know that He has and He will be there for me, through everything, because He is a sovereign God. No matter what, I know that He has a greater plan, just waiting for me to unravel. 

While I was just happy and contented with how things are back home, God decided to take me out of my comfort zone, out of where I am familiar with, out of where I belong, and put me in this place where everything is brand new, and different. The culture, the people, the things they do here. I was absolutely okay, and ready to take a gap year and stay at home, maybe do a twinning, but I am so blessed to have been given this opportunity to study overseas. And I couldn't be more excited about this. 

Whilst feeling incredibly homesick, I am very grateful. Here I am, 19, going on 20 and having an adventure of a lifetime. Grateful to God for His amazing grace upon my life, for providing me parents who loves and have given their all to me, to be able to give me an experience that they themselves couldn't have. To allow me to live out this dream for an adventure. 

Truly, nothing is better than God's grace, upon my life, when Christ died for my sins, on Calvary. 

Hannah