Vents.

"There are two different types of people that I've met. One is the ones who look down on me. And the other is the ones who have expectations of me that are crazily high. And most of the time, I'm just stuck in the middle, trying to prove to the ones who look down on me wrong and that I am actually more capable than they had imagined. And proving right to the ones who have high expectation of me so that they won't be disappointed by me. I'm tired and I really need to rest. I need to just be alone.

Every year, every single year, I'll get caught up in the same sticky situation that I absolutely hate. The only difference is that it's with different people. I need time to think about why I keep getting myself tangled up in all these. Every single year! And I'm tired of it. I just want to brush everything off. Some people have it so easily. They can be themselves and not get caught by all these. It seemed to me like I was a prone target of being teased. I don't mind it, really. It's just that I really don't want to get tangled up.

I try, and I work and nothing seems to happen. I work my butt off and all I get is a disappointing results. sometimes I feel like I'm a disappointment to my parents. But I'm trying, and I'm trying to hard to please them, but.

I feel insulted every time someone thinks that a certain someone is my boyfriend, I mean really? What is wrong with me being alone? Is it a vibe that I send that causes them to think that way?

I just needed to vent. I'm upset. Im feeling numb. But thank you for listening. "

:'(

Hannah