Fear, Doubts, Stress.

i know i havent been updating much. my thousand apologies to whoever that still reads this.

school has been crazy. teachers go crazy with homework because they have 20 marks to threaten us with. so they just spam us with it.

plus mid terms are in like a month's time.

so regretted not getting a head start in sejarah last year. sure, najed is great, but hes well.. really slow. how are we gonna finish until chapter 4 when we're not even done with chapter 2? oh gaaah.

so yes, busy with everything, plus havent been in a really good mood lately.

TimeToGetThingsStraight.

Hannah

Sweet Sixteen.

honestly i can say that it has been the best. at least much much better than last year.

instead of focusing on who's gonna give me what on that day, i decided to just thank the Lord for how He has brought my through 16 years of my life. it's been a struggle thats for sure. but i knew the risk was that mr sa.tan would be trying to bring me down over and over again if i keep maturing in Christ.

This year, i kept my focus on Him and no one else. and He sure did surprise me in so many ways i wouldnt never dreamt of.

two surprises by two groups of friends, two cakes/ cupcakes, one ice cream apple pie and one very very cute waiter. ;)

to everyone who wished me, by text, by calls, in person or by facebook. thank you so much. i really thank the Lord for all of you. wishes that came in from 12.00 am onwards. messages that were just so awfully sweet.

being 16 is just a number. but being with the ones i love most is what matters. and i can honestly say that i've been growing, mentally, physically, spiritually. knowing there's so many people that's willing to be there for me, to listen to my thoughts.

girls from school( manda drea kitee crys rittie vin and yasmin) celebrated it on thursday. you guys are just as sweet as the cake okaay! :)

friends from church( gosh, theres so many! you know who you are right? or ill be writing for 50 pages!) thank you so much! besides the torturing me part by making me blow off the candles and the streamers. but you all were awesome! :)

plus the cute waiter who wished me! THANK YOU! (: (: (: (drea, im still going gaga over guys. BEAR WITH IT! :D )

THANK YOU ALL OF YOU who made my day, really really joyful and emotional. :') you guys shall be in the history of Hannah Ong! (:

tonight,ishallshutmyeyesand covermyears,allyouhavetodoispullthetriggerandgetitoverwith.

Dont know where she belongs

-Nobody's home

Hannah

2010

best new year ever! (: i know 2010 would be a great year! :D

as people are trying to get into curve and ou. while i, decided to get out of there! :D

spent dinner and the fist half an hour of the year 2010 with the lovelies.

how else would i rather do it?

went home after that and i realised, i wouldnt trade anything in the world for the year 2009. because eventhough it was horrible for me, there was some pretty sweet moments for me. one that i would love to remember.

and i literally slept with a smile on my face yesterday night!

ps, im sorry if i didnt take a picture with you, but we have the time in the year to do it! :D

pictures are on fb! check it out! :)

Becausei'vefoundwhatlovereallymeans.

Somehow I realize I'm so tired of the lies they keep telling me

Telling me I should look down inside in myself to find something greater

When I know I can look at the bright sight and find the Creator

-You In Me

Hannah

2009

one word for 2009: LONG!

thinking back about what happened in the beginning of the year made me go: "omg, did that really just happened less than 12 months ago? it felt like eternity."

nevertheless, this year has definitely been a year full of tears. probably half the year has been flooded with tears. it has been a struggle passing through the year. but i've made it! we're made it! memories from 2009 i would love to erase but cant. tears from hurts, fears, uncertenty that i wouldnt mind if it would just go away.

2009 has been the worst year of my whole fifteen years so far. one year that if i could repeat it, i wouldnt. Then again without the year 2009, i wouldnt be able to mature in Christ, in myself more. i wouldnt be able to find myself and discover who i really am, who my real friends are, and realized that there are people out there for me. willing to listen to my grumbles and complains, plus wiping my tears away.

2009 has been a year where a lot of 'somebodies' left my side to pursue their dreams, their studies. i've had a lot of unanswered question lingering around my head, unable to find an answer to it. but now i know, if i couldnt find the answer, maybe i wasnt meant to have it.

2009 has been a tough year, but whatever that doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger. a BIG thank you to those who went through it with me. it has really been a roller coaster ride. one that was so horrible that i wanted to get off it, but cant.

in the soon to come 2010, im not going to be looking for love, but let it find me. im determined to concentrate and fulfill those 10A1's in the year 2011. no one said life was easy.

but i know, that whatever that doesnt kill me, only makes me stronger.

and failure only makes me more determined to succeed.

time to close my fifteen-th chapter of life and get started with the sixteen-th(:

so now, im proud to bid the year 2009 goodbye and dont ever come back.

and welcome the year 2010. be nice to me alright. im still a kid!

happy new years everyone(:

Hannah

Ready To Leave.

gone baby, maybe for the best.

sorry.